There are people in my life who fulfill many of the needs I have. Most of them are right here in my neighborhood (these are the people), but some of them are hundreds of miles away. The ones in my backyard, so to speak, are the ones I probably take for granted. I won’t lie, we all probably do to some degree. I pissed one of them off recently because I didn’t bother to look at her reasoning for things I felt were hurting her. She set me straight and I think all is well. It was good to clear the air, because I was worried. I had no reason to be, though. She has it under control.
There are others locally who fill various needs as well, and I won’t be specific on that. One of the jokes made by my widow friend is that she has five guys who, when combined, make the perfect boyfriend. I won’t say that’s what I’m saying, but I know people who make me happy in many different ways that are all their own. That’s why we have so many friends, right? Cuz they’re all so different and unique and awesome in their own way.
It’s the ones who are far away who I wish I had more time with. You meet these wonderful people and they are so far away and all you want is to have them around the corner. I worry sometimes that I overreach and maybe even annoy a bit, but then I remember how awesome I am and that thought disappears. Amirite?
These people who are so far away are almost friends on a deeper level than many of the ones nearby, and again, that goes back to taking the locals for granted. There’s plenty of time to delve deep into who they really are, but with the friends who live so far away, all we have is to get into what really makes us tick, and that’s where the beauty is. It’s not that I desire the friendship of these people over anyone else, because there’s a lot to be said for face time, but theirs is a friendship I value in a different way than those of you who live around the corner.
Perhaps that’s something I should change. I suppose I should also make more time for my friends who live on the fringe of my life, and there are plenty. We all have plenty of friends like that. I hope to spend more time with those who are so far away, perhaps even see if something real and exciting could come of it, but in the meantime I hope to build better relationships with those who are physically closer yet emotionally hundreds of miles away. Why can’t we have it all?