Goodbye for now

March 24, 2014 in Finding my way | Comments (2)

I write here because it gets my feelings down on paper, so to speak. It allows me to express my deepest sadness in a way that I can’t seem to do on a whim. The thoughts fill me, and if they don’t come out here, they don’t come out anywhere. That’s just how it is.

I get compliments on my writing ability. I feel good about how I can convey to all of you exactly what I’m feeling, and when I go back and re-read what I’ve written, it’s perfect. It’s almost always perfect.

But it all comes from a very bad place in my heart, and that talent is gone when I’m in a good place. I don’t wanna spend any more time in that bad place. I don’t want to find good in that bad place. I want to get away from it all.

Technology has shrunk the world for us, and there’s a lot of bad in that, too. I want the world to be bigger. I want to find things with my eyes and my feet. I want to know what you’re doing when I get there. So I have to leave here. I don’t for how long, but it could be forever.

The world needs to be bigger, because it keeps shrinking and closing in on me, and I can barely breathe.

I thank you all.

2 Responses to “Goodbye for now”

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  1. Comment by Amie aka Mammaloves — March 24, 2014 at 6:03 pm  

    we’re always here–as near or far as you need. And I understand. When things are dark I get them out best through words.

    Go. Explore. Enjoy some sunshine. You know she’d want you to.

    Sending love always!

  2. Comment by JennMarch 31, 2014 at 11:01 am  

    Hoping an amazing and beautiful path for you and yours.

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